From the earliest time that I can remember, I have been deathly afraid of plants and flowers. Weird I know. There’s nothing like fainting when a guy you like gets you some flowers, okay I’m being dramatic. I definitely preemptively warn them first.
My first memory of this was when I was around three years old, going for a walk with my mom, who at the time was pregnant with my sister. That damn flower got too close to me and I freaked out, yelling and jumping and trying to get as far away as I could from that evil flower. I was so scared and stuck in the middle of trauma that I knocked my mom onto her stomach in my attempt to save my own life from this flower. Yes my sister is fine.
What three year old is terrified of a flower? That answer that didn’t come until much later in life. I wish I could say that I grew out of it, but that’s not how this went down. One of my other early memories was of my sister chasing me with a bouquet of tulips and me running and screaming as if my life depended on it. Maybe that was her payback from her early memory inside our mothers womb.
The last memory that I will share with you, was when I was at Home Depot in the gardening section. I thought I could just get over it so I went over there, and within seconds I got dizzy and light headed and I blacked out, on the Home Depot floor, because they had me surrounded. (Hey, at least I had a good sense of humor about this, even then.)
At some point I had gotten so fed up with this that I had a long talk with my mother. She suggested that I see a Hypnotherapist to find out the root of this. She read an article about a young girl who was terrified of vacuums and under hypnosis, found out that in her prior life, she died in an airplane crash. This was the first logical thing that I heard and it definitely peaked my interest.
In 2009 I went to school to be a Massage Therapist, I never would have guessed that would be a turning point in my life. Shortly after graduating, I decided that I needed more, so I enrolled in a Hypnotherapy school off of Ventura Boulevard in LA. I was always fascinated with past lives and after experiencing a few of mine, I finally unlocked what happened to me.
Now, when you see a past life, you don’t choose, what shows up just shows up and you figure out how that ties in with what you are going through. This was a very spontaneous session and I couldn’t have prepared myself for what I was about to find out.
What I saw was that I was in the Roman era, and I was in the Military. My job was to pillage and set fires to entire communities. I saw myself on a white horse, running through this little town and torching everything that I saw. I saw horrific things that I will not write here, but the next thing that I saw was that I was lying sick in bed, slowly and painfully dying. My mother and sister in this life were in that life as well. My sister was a Physician/Herbalist, and my mother was her assistant and Nurse type. In that life they had conspired against me for what I had done to all those villages and they poisoned me, while taking care of me. I could feel the poison inside my stomach, and my stomach was in knots. I knew I was dying and I knew they did this.
Whats hilarious is my sister in this life has always been in the medical field, and currently wants to be a Natural Medicine Doctor.
Well anyhow, as soon as I got out of hypnosis this phobia slowly starting to go away on its own. My phobia was there to protect me and keep me wary of plants and flowers because I remembered how much they hurt. To top that off, in this life, my mother and sister are my best friends and they helped me on my journey to become a Hypnotherapist. We cleared our karma together.
I now enjoy plants and flowers and like to surround myself with them.
If anyone reading this has a phobia, I highly recommend exploring past life hypnotherapy. If this resonated with you at all, I highly recommend exploring past life hypnotherapy.